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Suffering Time

by White Beast

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1.
Hello 01:21
2.
I was in the heart of my country Feeling alone again With the weight of a broken down body I can feel the walls closing in The only home I knew Boarded up, entombed A dead end Down by the shore what do I see? Plastic hopes and dreams, false memories Always wanting more was never me But I can barely afford the air I can’t breathe On the edges of a distant city My hotel room’s lit by chains I thought the last exit was a new beginning but the signs here are all the same An ugly menagerie Of consumer loyalty Unrestrained Now I’m spending more just to stay afloat Love’s found in a store, change in a vote I’ve got a new friend he’s small but I can always find him He takes me somewhere I’m strong, safe, warm and quiet Hope’s just a lonely word for some lost fantasy I cannot be sustained by that brash temerity I am reassured by my friend that little pill In a world as sick as this one there’s no shame in being ill Oh whoa oh oh There’s no shame in bein ill Oh whoa oh oh Is all there is to gain some indemnity? I haven’t failed an honest game, I’ve fulfilled a destiny This deadly despair beneath the surface that you keep Knows the richest land on earth is not for me The richest land on earth is not for me The richest land on earth but not for me
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Branded 04:08
Well I know A brand is all my being Use this Flesh and blood machine Expose me Til the skin begins to peel My body Is not the part of me that’s real Sink your teeth into me While I’m feelin Tell me what you see Is worth seein Is all my life dictated by fear? Without your loving light Am I even really here? Then all at once I begin to disappear In a swell of code The content of my veneer Was told Not shown I’ve sold What no one can own
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Fencewalker 03:06
Beg, broken, stall Action never pushed policy Wait you turn You will see Polity wins over all Note the opposition Demarcate what’s fine Buried in your bones are your limits, your lines Damn the segregation while choking on the signs That in your comfort there’s oppression while a war is waged outside Goddamn Everything is fine Goddamn When is it your next time? Left, right, same You must respect all property Plead for life with dignity Smile it’s only a game Note the opposition demarcate what’s fine Buried in your bones are your limits, your lines Damn the segregation while your choking on the signs That in your comfort there’s oppression while a war is waged outside Goddamn Everything is fine Goddamn When is it your next time? Breakin at the bend It’s comin around again Who will you defend? It’s comin around again Note the opposition demarcate what’s fine Buried in your bones are your limits, your lines Damn the segregation while your choking on the signs That in your comfort there’s oppression while a war is waged outside Goddamn Everything is fine Goddamn When is it your next time?
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Gone All 03:55
I am freed in these fecund beliefs With the truths that you are without Saving my neighbors in front of their screens Forlorn I’m their various doubts Come now be with us all Rejoice in the relief of the thrall Oh I cannot wait To breathe out in the sun To feel it on my face in full view of everyone Oh lord guide us now My whole world is comin down There are times when embracing and the holding of hands Just isn’t good enough When the children’s doting of their parent land is expressed in a ravaging love Come now move in the sprawl Where once one went now go all Oh I cannot wait To bring it out in the sun To fight upon the stage in full view of everyone Oh lord guide us now The whole world is comin down I knew the opposition and what it had to be Granted all permission from the commander in chief The aim began slipping as we were laying siege Abandoned at the moment of our hopes reality And I saw The cracks in our dream and it’s flaws The storm had come and had gone And I feel so alone Oh I couldn’t wait To bleed out in the sun To leave something here Or at least to have begun Oh lord Help me now My whole world is coming down
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Checking In 01:52
Oh I wonder Is everything the same? The force, the shifting, the source of all that pain Learned, unlearning The divorce, the drifting grain God unwilling Penitence, guilt or shame Guilt or shame Guilt or shame
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I wish I could keep living a dream I’ve soaked my clothes in kerosene Cause all my life I’ve felt the precipice looming Of all our fears becoming all consuming It’s here It’s here for all to see It’s clear We are calamity The seer Of all our enmity Is near Brace for catastrophe Here’s to a swelling ground Here’s to a home that never got found That’s all over now No one’s backing down Here’s to our failed state Here’s to the futures robbed and remade Here’s to a dawning day Where Justice has a sound Where all our hope Is more than praying on a vote It’s made real The system’s not broken it’s a sick machine Fill my glass with gasoline I knew it was real but see the brunt of the shirk Is gonna roll downhill and the falls gonna hurt And I’m scared For my friends and family Unprepared For the violence of authority Ensnared But too cozy to speak Who cares? The fall won’t come down on me Here’s to a swelling ground Here’s to a home that never got found That’s all over now No one’s backing down Here’s to our failed state Here’s to the futures robbed and remade Here’s to a dawning day Where Justice has a sound Remember all who spoke With their bodies for our hope And keep them here Wait, was all that pretend? Can my heart mend? Say, there’s something new and real that is worth defense And pray for one more chance To build anew To make amends For strength in friends For strength in friends Here’s to a swelling ground Here’s to a home that never got found That’s all over now No one’s backing down Here’s to our failed state Here’s to the futures robbed and remade Here’s to a dawning day Where Justice has a sound Now we’re on our own Our fathers burned our home To the ground
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Fucked Up 02:26
I know this ain’t workin I know where we’ve been I know where we’re headed That’s all there ever is Savior, soldier, family, friend Pulled back bootstraps God just shut the fuck up Whose man told you all you need is love? I know that he loves me I know I love him too His pain wants retribution I think we’ll see it through Savior, soldier, family, friend Pulled back bootstraps Y’all have got us fucked up Whose man told you all you need is love? Reconditioning, nothings fair No life’s easy God just shut the fuck up You already know This is the sound of our guns Law It is law That means nothing We both saw A risings coming And raised on contempt
11.
Bad Man 04:05
I’m an island All integrity I’ve decided That everyone is me Bad man The bad man’s not me A bad man Doesn’t love or dream You’re a sickness You’re what’s wrong with me No weakness No vulnerabilities No I don’t have what you’ve got I’m made of all the right stuff I’m learning your worth you fuck Move on Enough is enough I’m done Not worried about what you want I’m shakin it off for Bold decisions To make the world like me You’re a witness I’m a pedigree
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I am my own nation I am the heart beneath I am the confusion of our post scarcity need Times running out Even it’s work writ I see the lie It’s real and I’m it Now I’m understanding That the choices that we’ve made weren’t made in health That the show is so commanding Sometimes I think it’s showing me myself That I am king and king is god itself I am a body of work A commodity exchanged I am all the unreal truth My pleasures liquid Unsustained I’d loves a gift To give and take An exchange of goods Well fuck it I’ll break Now I’m understanding That you want to be mine and I be yours That the family were demanding Is a chain that’s binding us to bloody shores There may be no way to reconcile Life to me means more than a posed smile The sun is setting brightly On this empire of disease My imagination tightly Held closer than belief So I don’t live in hell I won’t live in hell Sometimes I’m dismissive And need to remind myself That I’m not the only one who is working on themselves And I’m not doin well Sometimes I’m not doing well Now I’m understanding That the impulse to control Rots the soul Painfully demanding Transcendence through a journey to be whole Sometimes I wanna know and love everyone Sometimes I just want it all to be done
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Goodbye 01:09

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"…without a sufficiency in the means of life, life itself is impossible, and without a certain excess in these means, life is degraded to a cruel struggle for survival…Leisure time under these conditions is not free time…the “time” of a community on the edge of survival is “suffering time”
-Murray Bookchin
"The Ecology of Freedom"

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released July 14, 2023

Bass/Vocals/Lyrics - Jeffrey Rettberg
Drums - Sam Roberts

Recorded and mixed by Jacob Honaker
Mastered by Bill McElroy at Slipped Disk
Additional recording by Nick Scrobisz
Additional mixing by Kyle Byington
Cover art by Jeffrey Rettberg

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FuckFascists//Free Palestine//Be Gay

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